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haven't posted anything for a while.

life's good, thank God.

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toodles! :)

meow.

almost had a catfight with my older sister. well well. that just what might happen when you have more than 7 girls in the same house, moreover with their crazy hormonal system.

i don't hate her, but i don't think i love her either, not even as a sister.

she's a stepsister of mine, fyi. i grew up with her, but i kinda almost never take her as my sister, moreover as a role model. nah.

she's just.. idk.

how could i respect someone when she can't even give me something to be respected? HOW?

is that my fault?

i ain't respect her. i did, a bit. then she lose it now. her loss.

i don't think my life wud be worse without her. i guess.

she has never make a big effect to my life.

not someone to be looked up to, for sure.

i'm not taking any of her craps. let her boyfriend hears it, because i won't.

when she talked in front of the bathroom door when i was taking a bath, i hope she could see my face. i was humming and singing quite cheerfully, and answering every single sentence she spilled. kurang ajar? you bet. i don't care.

JUARA DUNIA MAIN ENGKLEK!

jago banget nih gw main engklek pasti kalo udah sembuh.

tadi jatoh di rumahnya Om Andi, gara2 ga liat susunan ubinnya tinggi rendah gitu, padahal ga ada 5cm selisihnya, dan ga lagi megang apa2. kalo lagi main bb ya ga heran ya, tapi giliran lagi main bb malah ga kenapa2.

ini pertama kalinya kena ankle, jadi harus dilestarikan ceritanya hahahaha.

seumur2 main basket ga pernah kena ankle. main di hutan juga kaki ga pernah kenapa2. giliran lagi anteng malah jatoh ampe segini. shit happens.

stressful banget ya ternyata gabisa jalan. mesti loncat kemana2 pake 1 kaki. plus, i'm on my period. kebayang ga sih ribetnya. mati.

pengen nangis daritadi, selain gara2 sakit, berasa kaya invalid gitu gasuka aja jadi gabisa ngapa2in.

but i know tears won't help, jadi gausahlahya gausah cengeng.

no one could help me but myself, apalagi udah almpst midnight gini. mau ga mau deh.

still, i'm trying to be grateful. gw jadi tau rasanya gimana gapunya kaki sebelah. dan gw jadi tau kemampuan gw seberapa heuhehehe abis ini kan lumayan bisa jadi atlit engklek, kalo jadi juara dunia kan asik abis #ngayal awkakakkaa stress.

semoga cepet sembuuuhh, sebelom natal harus udah sembuh. besok diurut, ayo bangunkan mode masochist. amen!

somedaaaayyy~

Know it. Know it but I was too naïve to admit that I know it. 
Thanks for opening up, dear. I'll try my best to understand, to not do the same mistake ever again. 
I wanna be the one that understands you most(:
I know that you wuff me, and I do to, so I hope we'll be together again someday(:

time flies!

huello! it's the 1st of november already! how time flies :D

so excited for this month, hope it'll be even better than October..

and moreover, it's nearer to December to come! hooray!

can't wait for the holiday, christmas, and the end-year trip.

and else. muehehehehe.

really hoping for the best for this month.

may God kindly bless this month for me, you, and each and every one of us.

xoxo!

it's time.

hey there. long time no write here.

it's been 7months or so. it's time for me to move on.

i'm not supposed to be this muzzy when i finally feel this numbness.

it's been too long, actually.

but at one point, i'm glad.

and i'm sort of relieved, seeing you are loved enough.

well, i got my whole life to deal, so..

see you another time, i guess?

maybe in the end of the year..

or one day in Netherlands. hope so.

xoxo

birthday wishlist :D

next week is finally my birthday!

here's some stuffs that i want :D

#1. white lily(s) or red roses.

#2. zara acid denim shirt.

#3. zara boots.

#4. red or black pump shoes. or white wedges.

#5. surfer girl's cute, reversible black bag.

#6. actionsampler. or disderi3lens.

#7. D90. or D700. :p