truth.

i really want to tell the truth.
i really want you to know how much i wanna see you.
i really want you to know how much i wanna hear your voice.
i really want you to know how much i wanna hear your stories.
and how much i wanna hear and laugh at your jokes.
but that means i'm risking everything.
risking our already-broken friendship,
risking my effort to hold everything i haven't done lately,
risking our every future.

i can't bear losing you again. i have no heart left.
you took it with you and you haven't gave it back.

i miss you.
idk why but these couple of days i miss you badly.

i'm longing to see you again, anytime soon.
i'm longing to hear the truth from you.
about me, about you, about us.

like what i heard when i watched C.S.I. Miami today,
at the end of the day, the truth is what we have.